Christians - By Maya Angelou
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin.'"
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!
***I saw this on my mom's email and i thought it was so true... this is the definition of a christian... We are'nt better than anyone, we are just forgiven and i need to remember to take the time to thank him for that more often.. <3** ILUVUALLLOTS
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i would REALLY like to work in a hair salon that would be fun!!! OH YEAH i almost forgot... American Idol was great this week especially Taylor of course... and Mandisa the theme this week was fifties and the guest star that trained the comtestants was Mr. Barry Manilow.. he is a musical genius!!! my favorites this week were of course Taylor and Mandisa... and paris sang "Fever" and she was pretty good too oh and Chris did this AWESOME rock and roll version of "I Walk the Line" he rocked out of course..they were my faves... the bottom three this week were lisa tucker, AGAIN she is really not as good as i thought she was, Kevin Covais and Bucky... KEVIN WENT HOME.... FINALLY!!!! I just felt so sorry for him... he wasn't a bad singer but he wasn't as good as the others and it was time for him to go!! Lisa and thank goodness Bucky get second chances but if Lisa blows it next week she is goin home for sure!!! I LOVE BUCKY even thought he won't win he is still really good and I like his style.. it kind of reminds me of pat green he even sang wave on wave one week and it was really good!!! well enough about that... i have to get ready to go to my chiropractic therapy but i will try to start updating this thing more often!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! ~byee~<3-jenn
GREAT movie.. everyone should see it!!!!
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so it sure has been a while!! LoL sorry about that... anyways.. things are getting better ( at least it seems that way) one of the things i was so stressed about has been taken care of so that is a HUGE weight lifted off of my shoulders... as for the other thing.. i don't think it will EVER change!! but i guess i have come to the realization that some things just never do and i am learining more and more each day to deal with it... I have to remember that God is there for me and sometimes that is hard to do because i think no one is... but then i am reminded by my friends and family that not only God is there for me but so are they! I guess what i am going through is part of growing up.. soemtimes i feel like i want to stay young forever... but i also want to go forward and see what my future holds.. it's really mixed emotions!! Lately i feel like i am focusing a little too much on the future that i am forgetting to live in the moment.. like i am trying to "get it over with" when what i really need to do is sit back and enjoy what is left of my childhood!! I think we are all guilty of that sometimes though.. i am just glad i have realized it before it's too late!! ANYWAYZ.. changing the subject...this week has been pretty good so far, Monday the crisis was taken care of and i was finally able to relax, Today we watched Toy Story in speech class and i forgot how cute and funny that movie is!!! it was fun...tonight i watched AMERICAN IDOL!!! whoooo and i voted for Mandisa FOUR times because she has an amazing voice!!! i also voted once for Paris and once for Mellisa McGee, all of the rest of the girls were kind of slacking... tommorow is the guys.. TAYLOR is my favorite.. i have to admit that i do vote for Will and David just because they are cute and i like to watch them perform but they are both really talented and pretty unique with there styles of music!!! I just have to say though... I think i want Taylor to win.. he is the best and there has never been any one else like him on the show.. his voice is like velvet it's so smooth and beautiful!!! and his look is so different and cool... I WANT TO BE ON THAT SHOW SOOOOO BAD!!!! oh yeah and speaking of music.. Rampage auditions are on the sixth.. I'm REALLY nervous but SOOOOOO excited.. this is gonna be a really fun year i think!!! The whole prom date thing is still a negative... but i am not gonna worry about it, I think God will take care of it for me!!! I have someone in mind but i am afraid to ask him... if he can't go then i don't know who i will bring.. i can't think of anyone else. oh well i'm not gonna worry about that anymore. We had our drug testing for tennis today and Arp told me to lay off the dope...LoL like i would do drugs.. yeah right!!! GIVE HUGS NOT DRUGS!!! I am excited abotu church tommorow... Wednesday nights are the best!!! Well i think i am gonna go to bed, i am really tired.. I am sorry this entry is so long.. i just wanted to let everyone know that things are somewhat starting to look up : ) and thanks for all the encouragement!!! i LoVe YoU aLl!!! very much!!! *<3~jenn*
...... LOOK WHAT I FOUND!!! hahahaha
and like you are just ONE BIG MISTAKE??? And nothing you EVER do is gonna be good enough?? i know i shouldnt feel this way... but i just can't help it!!! i have never been this down... and i cant pull out of it and now it is gettin to where i cant hide it anymore... i feel like my heart has been RIPPED out of my chest!!! and i feel like no one TRULY loves me... the word LOVE is used so nonchallantly these days if we counted how many times we say that word in a day... and how much we truly meant it , then we would realize just how much we lie!!! Love is what God had for us when he died on the cross..that is the biggest display of Love that has ever been!!!! I feel like he is the only one who really loves me ... and now i feel like he is forgetting me!!! i have never felt so empty in my entire life!!! everything just keeps going wrong and just when i think nothing else can happen.... another bomb is dropped!!! I CAN'T TAKE ANY MORE!!!!!! why is God letting all of this happen to me?? i don't understand!!! I feel like i can't trust anyone ever again!!! Like no one is ever truly honest with me about anything and like no one will ever understand the pain i am going thru!!! i fake a smile everyday of my life and pretend i am okay... everyone thinks i am so "happy go lucky" but the truth is i am not happy at all an i don't think i ever will be!!!! I can't pull out of this depression and i can't help but ask over and over again "why does all of this happen to me?" No matter how many people say they understand.... no one does!!!! I JUST GIVE UP!!!! I hate crying!!!! it sucks!! 
